Living In Denial

Things don't always go as planned,
And I don't like that.

Sometimes surprises are good,
And plot twists make the story.
Not this time.

I was going to give it one week.
I wanted my words to sink in.
I felt that she needed the cold shoulder.

Now I'm sitting here,
And I don't know what to do.
None of it feels real.

I know I have to come to terms with it.
It's been weeks.
But I don't want to accept it.

Jeremy was mad at me.
He couldn't understand my numbness.
He thought I was indifferent.

As if I could be indifferent about this.
This isn't the type of thing that you just shrug off.
But I haven't cried.

Every time I get close to crying,
I get angry.
I get angry and I stop myself.

Denial is a twisted thing.
Eventually this is going to hit me.
And when it does...

My world will turn upside down.

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