Unsure


I don’t know.
I’m wounded.
Unsure of how to cope with the pain.

Sometimes I’m fine.
My mind gets distracted.
Then when the thought resurfaces,
I cry.

Anger.
Sadness.
Confusion.

For a brief moment I wondered,
Am I being punished?
What did I do wrong?

Even though I know I didn’t do anything,
I’m beginning to realize my own faults.

The position you put me in
Has forced me to confront my demons.

I thought I was doing the best I could,
But now I see how much I was holding back.
I suppose I was trying to protect myself,
But perhaps I did more harm than good.

Instead of confronting the things that bothered me,
I ignored them.
Convinced myself that everything was fine,
Even though deep down I knew it wasn’t.

So,
Where do I go from here?

I don’t know.
I think we can be better,
But I’m scared to try again.
Only time knows where this will go.

So for now,
I’ll take my time.
Use it to try and figure this out.

Because I do believe in second chances.
I just have to make sure that this is worth it.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Dr. Jekyll

I’m thinking hard about what to say. I know that if I say the wrong thing My words will be used against me. My thoughts are overwhelming And I become frustrated. I appear to be unresponsive. The silence grows louder. It’s screaming in my ear. I start to panic. In thunderous roars I feel myself losing my sanity. I hiss. I growl. I shout. I imagine what my response feels like. It probably feels like a slap to the face, Or a venomous sting. For a moment, I can’t see a thing. It’s all just red. When the storm passes I see you standing in front of me, Angry and confused. I had a feeling this would happen. That damn Hyde. He’s always exposing the worst of me. I try to salvage this. To say what I really meant. But it’s too late. The damage has been done, And you now see the ugliness within me. Cynical, Twisted, And unhinged! You lash out. Calling me out for what I am. Believe it or not, I am j...
Read more

To All Men

To the men who claim they respect women, Do you stand up for us? If you hear another man Talking about sexually assaulting a woman, Do you confront him? Or do you say nothing? If a friend of yours catcalls a girl, Do you shut him up and condemn him? Are you silent? Or do you laugh and join him? If a drunk guy touches a girl And she exposes him later, And you know it happened, Do you justify his actions? Or do you stand up for her? If a girl comes onto you, And she’s completely wasted, Do you stop her? When your girl says she’s not in the mood, Do you pressure her? Or ignore her? You can say you respect women all you want, But your actions are what determines if actually do. If you want to do right by women, Be a better man.
Read more

The Quiet Kid

I sit in class everyday and actually listen. Not only to the teacher, but to you. You don't know my name. Sometimes you forget I exist. But I know your name. Alex. You have a dog named Sparky,. You play soccer, And your favorite color is green. I must really like you if I know all of this useless information, right? No. In fact, I think you're a jerk and a bit of a racist. The only reason I know these things is because you talk during the lecture. Also, you wear green all the time. I know a lot about Brenda, Jimmy, and Susan too. And although I would never want to be friends with any of you, I do find you all very intriguing. Also, I think Mr. Clark is getting a divorce. He's stopped wearing his ring and he doesn't mention Karen anymore. It's funny how I know so much about all of you, But you know nothing about me. I laugh to myself at the shocked looks on your faces when I say a single word. Didn't know I could talk, huh? And even ...
Read more