When You Leave


Things are about to shift.

I’m uneasy.

Always anticipating the worst.

As exhausted as my body feels
I can’t go to sleep.
Tossing and turning for hours on end.

Everything is about to change.
The thought of your absence terrifies me.
But there is nothing I can do.

You’re going to leave,
And I’ll be here trying to sort things out.

This transition hasn’t been easy.
None of it feels real.
My mind is stuck in the past.

You have been my excuse to hold on.
But I know that once you leave it’ll finally hit me.
I’ll be forced to accept my reality.
And that’s what scares me the most.

I’ve been bracing myself for the heartbreak.
Even though you haven’t left yet,
I feel as if I already miss you.

With you goes the person I used to be.
Who I am now will soon become a memory.
Nothing but a souvenir for you to take home.

All you’ll leave behind is a hollow shell.
Physically I’ll remain the same,
But everything else will change.

I’ll look off into the distance remembering what was.
Then I’ll look to the mirror and wonder,
Who can I be?

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