Living In Denial
Things don't always go as planned, And I don't like that. Sometimes surprises are good, And plot twists make the story. Not this time. I was going to give it one week. I wanted my words to sink in. I felt that she needed the cold shoulder. Now I'm sitting here, And I don't know what to do. None of it feels real. I know I have to come to terms with it. It's been weeks. But I don't want to accept it. Jeremy was mad at me. He couldn't understand my numbness. He thought I was indifferent. As if I could be indifferent about this. This isn't the type of thing that you just shrug off. But I haven't cried. Every time I get close to crying, I get angry. I get angry and I stop myself. Denial is a twisted thing. Eventually this is going to hit me. And when it does... My world will turn upside down.